A few weeks ago I woke up and the Lord whispered into my ear, "You can live totally free and abandoned in me because you are mine." Ever since that whisper He is teaching me to live in total freedom of myself even in the uncomfortable moments, trials and hard times. 

You see, it is really easy to be honest, transparent and vulnerable when you are in a good place. A place of smooth sailing, ridiculous joy and peace. However, faith gets tested and tried in the discomfort, battle, trial and when you don't "feel" or "hear" the Lord. My faith must be steady and strong despite feelings, emotions and circumstances. I must ask myself is my faith built on the foundation of what He spoke and His promise or the results and feelings of that? Many times I choose to put my faith in the emotion and feelings of His promises such as feeling loved or feeling like He's right here and not on His promises alone such as He is always with me and does loves me. I must choose to believe and stand firm despite anything that may come against the Truth of the Father and my identity as a beloved daughter. If faith is to deepen, then...Faith must be transparent.

Transparency is not pretty. In fact, it is beautiful. 

There is beauty in the boldness of speaking out to a community that loves you, the things that are holding you back.

There is beauty in transparency.

There is beauty in being vulnerable enough to speak out the death and darkness no matter how shameful it looks and feels or how dumb you think it is that you are believing that lie that you know not to be true.

There is beauty in breathing in Jesus

There is beauty in inviting the Father into a place in your heart where you feel shame, discomfort, fear and hurt.

There is beauty in being fully accepted in the Lord, always.

There is beauty in allowing the Lord to outpour His love and peace on you in moments of releasing all that's taking you as a prisoner.

There is beauty in the love of the Father.

There is beauty when you can be totally free to be you in all sorts of seasons and moments that are both fantastic and those that seem to be ugly. 

There is beauty in breakthrough.

There is beauty in knowing and BELIEVING who you are in the midst of the battle and trial.

There is beauty in being a daughter.

 There is beauty in freedom. 

I can live totally free and abandoned because I AM YOURS, Father...and that is enough.